I am so hooked to my new phone and after three days of playing with it, I am almost done with personalizing it. In the midst of that, I screwed up the data and luckily I manage to recover back most of the lost data.

I am so in love with this new phone.

I have always wanted a phone like this since my palm handheld gave way years ago. When I was still working, I rely heavily on the palm to get organized , I still continue to do so after I become SAHM, but someone (can’t remember which kids, accidentally throw the palm out of the palm cradle and that was the end of it). I thought I settle with a normal phone, but after JS started formal schooling and with me spending quite an amount of time outside the house, I feel like getting a PDA phone again. It is really a waste of time to go to the school early to get a parking and wait for her. I have settled with a HTC touch Viva which is not up to my expectation.

Recently I spent a lot of time “poking” on my phone screen, especially the time when I have to lie down in bed, nurse JE to sleep and I will be either playing games on my HTC or browsing net with the super slow browser. That prompt me to get a more efficient phone and I must say that the iPhone meet up my expectation. It’s like finding an old friend, I get to have functions like the palm but better, a phone as well as a tool to help me stay online. ( I can’t live without the internet!!) . With this I can even monitor the gold coins price online, no matter when, no matter where. I am so happy!!

Manage to pursue hub to get me an iphone. He said that this is the most expensive “patch up” gift. haha. Been busy playing with the phone and am so in love with it. It kept me away from the laptop and facebook for two days.

I am still not done with the phone as I still need to “customize” it to perfection. (in the midst I accidentally deleted half of the contacts , screwed big time as I have messed with the backup. Anyway, I reckon that is a small matter.) I am not downloading songs into the phone and among it are U2 songs. Hub loves U2. If ever they are coming to perform in Malaysia in near future, I will surely get U2 tickets for him.

She always says she wants to be an art teacher, now she is hooked with computer graphic. She is playing with MS publisher, making calenders as well as business cards. She changed her mind and say she wants to be graphic designer, just like Aunty Sasha. (She saw Sasha’s works before at http://sashatan.com). She said ” I want to be like Aunty Sasha, but I don’t want to do sewing like her, I want to design only”  “I want to draw using Bamboo pad , but aunty sasha said she draws using mouse only”

Looks like Sasha is her idol now.

Wants to expose her to photoshop software soon. Must learn together with her as I do not know how to use the software myself. The other day I checked the tutorial on Youtube, it seems easy, but I got really confused when I was using it last time.

An unexpected visitor came visiting way too early and when I least expected it too. From my past experiences, it should only visit after the kids turn one year old (earliest when JS was 13 months old).

This is so unusual.

JE is only 7 months and 6 days old and I am still fully breastfeeding.  For JS case , I had stopped breastfeeding when she was three months old, but Aunt Flo didn’t came visiting until she was 13 months old.

Now I am worry, does that mean my milk supply has dwindle in a way or two? Why come visiting so early. Could that be the reason of my grumpiness ?

I dislike Aunt Flo…but looks like it’s time I go to the pharmacy and start taking Noriday.

JS completed her two weeks school test last week. So far she had brought back four out of the seven papers. I must say I am very pleased and proud with her performance. She indeed have done very well on her own. I did not push her, we have not gone through any drills or revisions on exam eves , in fact there is not proper revision after I have got the exam scope. Everyday was just like any other days, she plays , she works/studies as usual. I did not have to go through all the worries and anxieties and both of us did not fret and stress.

I sigh a sigh of relief that I need not have to say ” I TOLD YOU SO!!” or “LOOK NOW, WHAT YOU HAVE GOT BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN PLAYING TOO MUCH” “SEE WHAT YOU HAVE GOT BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOT DONE REVISION TOGETHER/AT ALL” . I am so relieve that I need not have to say any of those.

Keep it up JS!!

SIL who had married to an American , who initially thought of settling down in the States, decided to return home for good. They had got back for a good 4 months and the cargo had just arrived recently.BIL bought back a BBQ grill, a kichler landscape lighting , a set of garden furniture along with many other stuffs. We had since had two BBQs party at SIL’s place. I must say BIL is a great cook. His ribs taste even better than those available at Hard Rocks KL.

This is my blog. I blog as I like. There is no rules saying that I should just report and post up happy moments. Once upon a time when I have these extra time to spare , I will blog everything. Everything that is happening around us, everything about the children. Well, it will be good record, but now, with limited time, I have to be very selective. After all, I can always refer back to the photos and videos for these happy moments. But my feeling on particular things right there and then , cannot be recalled other than penning it down.

My life is full of ups and downs. In fact everyone lives is. I do not run away and deny the down part and I don’t just post up happy things. It is so fake , it is like showing off.

As much as I like to post up more activities we have done and happy moments, I really do not have the time to spare to uploads photos and videos and write a full report about it. And there is no such needs to post up and announce to the world my new contemporary furniture or which upmarket high class dine out we have been to or the places we have traveled . It is so fake to be just posting up good stuffs and not the bad. My blog has now become my rice bowl (or rather snack bowl) and a place for me to rant and vent when I am unhappy.

Being a SAHM, when I have my down moment, I have no where to rant. Hence, here is the best place. When I am in happy mood, my time are spent with the children,not in front of the PC. When I am down, I steal of time off to rant it here. It is better than forcing myself to be with the kids and lashing out at them.

But there are people who think so highly about themselves, look at all your rant and grumble with disgust.Someone thinks I have a low EQ and couldn’t accept and be grateful of what I have and only knows how to complains and cause my own suffering. Someone who doesn’t know me personally, have not come to my house to see my happy children thinks my kids are suffering because of my depression. Someone thinks that I don’t report on the good moments we (hub and I ) shared with the kids means my kids are deprived from these happy moments.  Someone thinks that I am not accepting my hubby as the way he is. Someone says the world will be more wonderful and less bullshit to live in  if there shall be no complaint. We are not saint…we are just human with emotion and feelings. Isn’t it better to vent it out instead of letting it eats inside you? Someone says she can’t stand reading those bloggers who bitch , moan , criticizing and find fault with others (from their MIL and FIL to their maid and etc), someone feels disgust that we blog about every incident in great length and trap them in leaving words of assurance. If you don’t like it..drop it, don’t make judgmental comment.

Oh..indeed he came home early. At 9p.m. That is such an accomplishment. The kids were delighted but quite can’t believe it at the same time. I suppose after all those disappointment of waiting, they have somehow know not to have to high expectation.

I don’t know how long good time like this will last before I “fatt lan zha” again. The good thing is that when I fatt lan zha, he will try his best to patch things up..though my stubbornness don’t always forgive easily. He has brought the children out for a car ride.

I actually heard him ask the children “Do you all like daddy to come home early?”

The instant respond I heard from WH was him jumping up and down, excitedly said “YES!! EVERY NIGHT!!”

No , I didn’t brain wash them, it is really their sincere wish from deep in their heart.

I heard gardening is therapeutic. I have not really tried as I don’t think I have a green finger. But I have been feeling depress (AGAIN??!!) lately and I need to take my mind off. I wonder if gardening will helps. I read about this new indoor gardening, the hydroponic systems , perhaps I should really start some simple gardening. Try it out to see if it can cure my depression, a bonus will be if my plants grow, I will have a lovely garden.

Lately JS spent quite an amount of time hoarding over the house pc. Once she has done with her school work, she asked for permission to use the PC and I don’t have the heart to stop her. No, she don’t just play games on FB, I saw her doing a lot of design work using publisher and some animation work with PIVOT STICKFIGURE software. I must say she is very good at it. Sometimes when I browse through the PC, I discover many treasures. Those marvelous art work of hers. Perhaps I should consider getting another PC. Will find out which is the best model suitable for her, need to get reviews from desktop computer reviews

Some example of her work.

There are also some very funny animation she had made, but they are in raw format and after I save as GIF, I can’t quite get the right resolution to put in my blog. I am amazed with her talent.