Almost coming to the end of the first quarter of the year. I must say that since last year and until the first quarter of this year, JS’s schedule is still very relax and light compares to other children of her age. She is in P2 now, no doubt the school work that she brings home daily had increased compared to last year, but she still has plenty of time to dispense of, it is not hectic as what i have read about other children going to Chinese Primary school. She still had ample of time to play and rest.

Her schedule is like this:

Sat & Sun : Wakes up at 9a.m the earliest, latest by 10a.m. (unless daddy wakes her up for cycling, else they do it in the evening) Do whatever she wants, play, cycle, swim at the club, spent time at grannies place, shopping, drawing class on Saturday afternoon.

Weekdays:

Most day wakes up at 8.30a.m. Occasionally at 7.30a.m, then follows me out to sent WH to school, after that go coffee shop for breakfast. Some day she even gets up near to 10.00a.m. By the time she had her breakfast, it is almost time to get ready to go to school.

What does she do if she gets up early? I will try to get her to do some revision, very casual type. If she can concentrate for a good 1 hour, I will let her off to do whatever she wants, some days I even allow her on the pc.  She also needs to practice her piano at least 1/2 hour a day, cut short to 15 minutes if wakes up late. Seldom she will do her homework in the morning. She tries to finish off at night.

11.00a.m, start getting ready for school.

11.30a.m usually finish lunch and wait for the transporter to come. In between this time, she either choose to watch tv, go out to chat with her friends or a quicky game on the laptop.

11.50 – 12: transporter comes to pick her to school

6.50 p.m : reach home from school. Drop her bag at the hall, and goes cycling, sometimes we go to the playground.

7.15 – 7.20: bath time

7.30 : dinner and relax time. After dinner they get 1/2 tv

8.30: up to study area and start doing homework. Depends on the day load, she may finish early and we can have revision session, else she usually finish by 11. Rarely she needs to do till midnight or keep for the day after. After finish homework, she has a habit of making a quick scribble/coloring/drawing. In the middle of all this, she might say she wants to go downstairs for supper. Piano class on Wed from 7.30 to 8.30

11.15: To the room, wash up and suppose to get to bed. But yak none stop or ask me to read story. usually falls asleep after much nagging at 12a.m or way pass 12 midnite

I come to realize that she is too free and don’t appreciate it and taking it for granted. She can waste her morning away not doing anything just to wait for time to pass so that she can get ready for school. Every five minutes she check the clock to see if it is already 11a.m, hence she is not concentrating and taking what she is doing seriously. She is just killing time and not really doing what she is meant to do.

I have give her enough freedom to do what she wants, hoping that she will shows some initiative to learn at her own pace and do some sincere work, but I am disappointed that she is abusing this freedom and not showing that she appreciates it.

For a very long time, I have considered sending her for tuition, but I have hold back until now. One point is that I still hope and thought I could teach her. I thought that by coaching her myself, i could bond with her and to show her that I care and want to be involved. I have not sign her up for tuition also because i am worried that it might be too taxing and hectic for her. I don’t want the commitment that she needs to go to tuition class with extra works on the day she already has a lot of homework from school, I am thinking of a less pressure, happy learning environment for her. But since she is abusingthis and making me very upset, I guess a little commitment and discipline is what she needs.

People said it is hard to teach your own child. I tried not to believe in that. I take the homeschoolers for example, as they do pretty well being their children’s teacher. Unfortunately, I must admit that I have been defeated and my child just won’t learn with me. She doesn’t appreciate what I have arranged and do for her. I guess she will learn best under pressure and under the guidance of other people. So that she can take the tutor seriously, as she has been all the while too dependent on me and takes me for granted.

So I have give up to be her sole tutor. I surrender. I am not fit to teach her and it is causing both of us stress, especially comes exam time. No way that I can save the tuition expenses too.

我很爱我的孩子们．但生气时，总爱对他们说负起话，说得很难听．很多时候，明明已原谅了他们，心软了，但还是嘴硬，摆出还很生气的样子，拖至一天半载．每天对他们唠唠叨叨，骂和偶尔的打　nag and scold，事后心里极度难过． 每当他们不在身边时，心里总是牵肠挂肚，思念得很．夜深人静，他们都熟睡了，对他们的爱意，满满的洋溢在心中．想紧紧的抱住他们，亲他们，　对他们说＂爱你＂．好想只给他们温柔的话语，耐心和鼓励，很想不生他们的气，好想实行爱的身心教育，好想天天只对他们说　＂很爱你．你最棒＂．答应自己要好好控制脾气，好好教他们，别用打骂．提点自己要包容他们的一切．　但每每都做不到．骂了，打了，气才能消，气消后才后悔自己的所作所为． 孩子们，我不是一个好妈妈．我缺点很多，　明知不该犯，却有控制不住自己的言行举止．妈很抱歉．

Since last Friday, my 28 months old who has been weaned off from the boobies for 8 months started asking for nen nen again. She shows such a pitiful look and cry that I could not resist. I gave in to her a few times. Once she’s done (probably a couple minutes) she unlatch , said thank you and walked off. I tried tandem nursing too, one side baby, the other side JL.

All because of the first leniency, she kept asking again. I tried to trick her, reminding her that it was spicy, as I used to put minyak cap kapak on it. She answered back “no , not latlat..got milk what”

She is crying for nen nen again, and I also caught her pulling up her shirt, trying to bend her neck down for her own nen nen and said while crying “while cannot get nen nen wan” aiyo.. that’s really funny.

P/S: Korkor saw me nursing nen nen again, he started asking also. *piak..slap forehead*. In fact all the years, since I gave birth to JL, he has asked for nen nen too. I told him he can have EBM. These are the result of extensive nursing. After they have weaned off, they still come back for it.

Not mine, but hub’s company.

When hub’s company had their recent Annual Dinner, the theme of the night was Kings and Queens. Funny and creative employees (usually form Marketing) dressed as Poker King, Burger King  and even Queen Bee. However, on a more serious note, some came in dressed astonishingly and elegantly, with their crowns and swords. Luckily none came in with breeches or they will be called King Napolean.

I still remember the lyrics to Alphaville’s Forever Young song that goes something like this “…forever young, I want to live forever young, do you really want to be forever, forever young…” Well, when there’s a will, there’s always a way. And that way, my friend, is a scientific way through Human Growth Hormone (HGH) releaser. Yes, hgh releaser works by slowing down our aging process, thus preserving the youthfulness in us.

Do you know of any diet pill that works? I have a diet pill that works and it starts with Mx3. Money, mental and Motion. We need some form of money to get more information, buy products or even attend classes. We need to be strong mentally after subscribing to diet programs and mo give up half way. And we need to balance it off with exercise whenever we can. A simple walk in the park over the weekend or washing and waxing the car is a great example.

It never crossed my mind that how well people can live by through Multi Level Marketing(MLM). For instance, there are many MLM’s that is doing very well in health products. Captions such as ‘it’s the same as one a day vitamin’ does ring your bell? That is because it is in Fast Moving Consumer Goods (FMCG) product category, which hard selling matters. We have been bombarded with thousands and thousands of catchy phases. And best part of it is, it is just the beginning.

My husband’s dream is to build his own crib that consists of a home cinema experience for him and his friend’s indulgence. In fact, having a home theater seating crib is a good idea after all. Instead of spending it on the weekends at the mall to catch movies with the family, money will be well spend and invested in this crib of his.

I still remember the first television experience I had when I was still a kid. We used to have a huge shutter that covers the idiot box and whenever we have finished watching a show, we will physically walk to the television and turn the knob off. Color television was non existence back then. televisions have come a long way since. From CRT and now LED technology, a huge portion of our daily lives are now dedicated to watching from reality to entertainment programs on this thing we called television.

With Obama’s recent success house vote to revitalize the US economy,  jobs will soon start to fill up newspaper columns again. Recent temporary payroll tax break for companies that hire the jobless will see a domino effect, a good sign for the unemployed. This will be felt in many places, Philadelphia jobs vacancy will not be excluded.  Therefore, let’s keep our fingers crossed.